Today is the last day of 2012.The world was predicted to end in 2012.Though it didn't (yet),the world definitely turned upside down for me.In a good way.
In February this wonderful year we came to know I was carrying.I tried to control my happiness and take one step at a time and place everything in the Almighty's hands.My blood values were on the higher side and my doctor was immediately suspicious of twins .Mom had come down to India for a short visit and was staying with us at the time.We had to wait for two weeks for the first ultrasound which was my personal nightmare.
My husband could not take the suspense any longer and off we went for the scan a day earlier than scheduled.Mom sat outside praying while we went in.I told the doc about the twin suspicion.Every second she stared at the screen seemed like an era to me.Finally she turned the monitor around and said "Well your suspicions are confirmed,it is a twin gestation." I guess I should have felt elated but my biggest worry was still pending. "How about the heartbeats?Is it there?" I asked with no expressions on my face. After a 'pregnant' pause,she replied "Yes,see that's one and there's the other."That's when I finally breathed.
I had always fantasized having twins.Well who hasn't?But never in my wildest dreams did I actually think it would become true.And I had always thought that when I became preggo I would continue working till the due date.God had other plans.
God exempted me from the common symptom of throwing up and instead gave me fatigue,bleeding episodes,umpteen pills including hormones,severe diet control,frequent testing and ultrasounds,travel restrictions,panic attacks,urine infections,sleepless nights,aches etc.Stress and inconsiderate behaviour at my workplace just added to it.Each bleeding episode was a terror.Another panic attack occured when a scan done in Coimbatore revealed that I might need a stitch to keep the babies inside.Thankfully my doctor in Kerala did not find it necessary but advised to stop working and so we decided that I would now take rest at my home in Cochin.Each time I felt more kicks coming from the left,I would worry about the baby on my right.The doctor had warned that premature delivery is a risk as it was twins and so I prayed to carry the pregnancy forward as much as possible.More than anything,it was the tension that was unbearable.I think having twins inside me doubled the anxiety.
Travelling was definitely a problem.My hubby and mom became experts at slow driving and turning a deaf ear to the persistant honking from behind and the snide remarks.A three hour journey from Coimbatore to Trissur, to write a reputed international exam in Ophthalmology which I had applied for before I knew I was carrying,took six long tiring hours.By the end of the trip I was exhausted and my back was killing me.Only when the results came out several months later did I not regret the trip.God is indeed kind.
Each day passed was a blessing to me.Though we got scares along the way,God always pulled us through it.Despite the tensions I loved being pregnant.Its such a wonderful feeling.The attention and consideration lavished on me was wonderful.Feeling my babies moving inside me was even more awesome.I forgot all the hardships when their tiny feet kicked.I couldn't wait to hold them in my arms.Did I wish too soon?More about that in the next post.
In February this wonderful year we came to know I was carrying.I tried to control my happiness and take one step at a time and place everything in the Almighty's hands.My blood values were on the higher side and my doctor was immediately suspicious of twins .Mom had come down to India for a short visit and was staying with us at the time.We had to wait for two weeks for the first ultrasound which was my personal nightmare.
My husband could not take the suspense any longer and off we went for the scan a day earlier than scheduled.Mom sat outside praying while we went in.I told the doc about the twin suspicion.Every second she stared at the screen seemed like an era to me.Finally she turned the monitor around and said "Well your suspicions are confirmed,it is a twin gestation." I guess I should have felt elated but my biggest worry was still pending. "How about the heartbeats?Is it there?" I asked with no expressions on my face. After a 'pregnant' pause,she replied "Yes,see that's one and there's the other."That's when I finally breathed.
God exempted me from the common symptom of throwing up and instead gave me fatigue,bleeding episodes,umpteen pills including hormones,severe diet control,frequent testing and ultrasounds,travel restrictions,panic attacks,urine infections,sleepless nights,aches etc.Stress and inconsiderate behaviour at my workplace just added to it.Each bleeding episode was a terror.Another panic attack occured when a scan done in Coimbatore revealed that I might need a stitch to keep the babies inside.Thankfully my doctor in Kerala did not find it necessary but advised to stop working and so we decided that I would now take rest at my home in Cochin.Each time I felt more kicks coming from the left,I would worry about the baby on my right.The doctor had warned that premature delivery is a risk as it was twins and so I prayed to carry the pregnancy forward as much as possible.More than anything,it was the tension that was unbearable.I think having twins inside me doubled the anxiety.
Travelling was definitely a problem.My hubby and mom became experts at slow driving and turning a deaf ear to the persistant honking from behind and the snide remarks.A three hour journey from Coimbatore to Trissur, to write a reputed international exam in Ophthalmology which I had applied for before I knew I was carrying,took six long tiring hours.By the end of the trip I was exhausted and my back was killing me.Only when the results came out several months later did I not regret the trip.God is indeed kind.
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