Wednesday, August 28, 2013

The Grand Entry

Last year,this time, my world changed forever.

2 tiny persons entered our lives.How it happened is not a simple story.They were impatient to see this world, or at least Zoya was and poor Zeba had no choice...Here's a quick recap.

My due date was November beginning.We hoped to go till October at least.Well God had other plans.On 31st August I started getting contractions which wouldn't go away whole day.Decided to get admitted though the last diagnosis was just uterine irritability.The scan revealed that the blood flow to one baby was decreased and that I had to take more medicines and rest to prolong the pregnancy for one more month.And so started long intravenous drips, oxygen inhalation, daily labour room visits for tests etc.All was fine again and we started relaxing in spite of the daily protocol.

My in-laws came to visit me on September 3rd and we spent the  time relaxing and talking.About an hour after they left,I felt as if my water started breaking.All chaos broke out.I was shifted to the labour room for confirmation.Even the doctor on duty was doubtful though I was confident of the diagnosis.My mother and husband returned to the hospital room and spent the night praying that it was a false alarm.They were unaware that I had lost a lot of water after they left.

Next day morning I informed them what happened.We then waited for the senior doctor to come.She did a scan and reported that almost all the water around one baby was lost.She discussed with the chief and decided to go ahead with emergency caesarean section.

On September 4th,2012, exactly 2 months before their due date, they arrived. By 11.45 my first baby girl was born and at 11.46 my second.I saw a glimpse of them both and heard their cries before they were whisked off to their pediatrician.

My husband was there with their pediatrician throughout the initial examination.My grandfather was called to sound the azaan  in their ears after being warned not to go too near.After that,off they went to the neonatal intensive care unit for preterm care.

I saw them through photographs taken by my husband till I recovered enough to visit them in the ICU by September 6th.My heart almost stopped on seeing how tiny they were.My husband kept reassuring me and the rest of the family that they were healthy otherwise and that they would be like term newborns within a couple of months.

My girls, the little fighters, slowly advanced under the wonderful care they received in the ICU.I would go to them twice a day and hold them and talk to them.My husband would do the same every weekend.The rest of the family still had to satisfy themselves with photographs.

After about a month,we got them to our room,one at a time.On their 40th day, with Allah's blessings, we went home.



Monday, December 31, 2012

The Carrying Angle

Today is the last day of 2012.The world was predicted to end in 2012.Though it didn't (yet),the world definitely turned upside down for me.In a good way.

In February this wonderful year we came to know I was carrying.I tried to control my happiness and take one step at a time and place everything in the Almighty's hands.My blood values were on the higher side and my doctor was immediately suspicious of twins .Mom had come down to India for a short visit and was staying with us at the time.We had to wait for two weeks for the first ultrasound which was my personal nightmare.

My husband could not take the suspense any longer and off we went for the scan a day earlier than scheduled.Mom sat outside praying while we went in.I told the doc about the twin suspicion.Every second she stared at the screen seemed like an era to me.Finally she turned the monitor around and said "Well your suspicions are confirmed,it is a twin gestation." I guess I should have felt elated but my biggest worry was still pending. "How about the heartbeats?Is it there?" I asked with no expressions on my face. After a 'pregnant' pause,she replied "Yes,see that's one and there's the other."That's when I finally breathed.

I had always fantasized having twins.Well who hasn't?But never in my wildest dreams did I actually think it would become true.And I had always thought that when I became preggo I would continue working till the due date.God had other plans.

God exempted me from the common symptom of throwing up and instead gave me fatigue,bleeding episodes,umpteen pills including hormones,severe diet control,frequent testing and ultrasounds,travel restrictions,panic attacks,urine infections,sleepless nights,aches etc.Stress and inconsiderate behaviour at my workplace just added to it.Each bleeding episode was a terror.Another panic attack occured when a scan done in Coimbatore revealed that I might need a stitch to keep the babies inside.Thankfully my doctor in Kerala did not find it necessary but advised to stop working and so we decided that I would now take rest at my home in Cochin.Each time I felt more kicks coming from the left,I would worry about the baby on my right.The doctor had warned that premature delivery is a risk as it was twins and so I prayed to carry the pregnancy forward as much as possible.More than anything,it was the tension that was unbearable.I think having twins inside me doubled the anxiety.

Travelling was definitely a problem.My hubby and mom became experts at slow driving and turning a deaf ear to the persistant honking from behind and the snide remarks.A three hour journey from Coimbatore to Trissur, to write a reputed international exam in Ophthalmology which I had applied for before I knew I was carrying,took six long tiring hours.By the end of the trip I was exhausted and my back was killing me.Only when the results came out several months later did I not regret the trip.God is indeed kind.

Each day passed was a blessing to me.Though we got scares along the way,God always pulled us through it.Despite the tensions I loved being pregnant.Its such a wonderful feeling.The attention and consideration lavished on me was wonderful.Feeling my babies moving inside me was even more awesome.I forgot all the hardships when their tiny feet kicked.I couldn't wait to hold them in my arms.Did I wish too soon?More about that in the next post.


Monday, October 31, 2011

And then I flew

And then I flew
To a land so beautiful
That I was struck numb
My mind healed
My spirits sang
I drank in the sweet air
I swam with the swans
Felt the wind lift my hair
My toes tingled
My fingers tapped
Unknowingly I hummed
Then I closed my eyes
And smiled like the sun

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Rosy days

Today I feel good about myself. Why? Well because I have partially completed the embroidery on my 1st self-embroidered salwar kameez. Yay! I am all excited now and can't wait to finish it.The thought of wearing my own work is just so amazing.

Here is a sample picture.Do let me know how it is.And please be gentle as its my first official one. ;) Ok so now that wouldn't be fair right?So I guess I'm open for criticism too. :D



This one is done on lime green linen material with multishaded pink and green threads and also beads.What do you think about the combination?Do give suggestions for more future pieces including color combos.

Friday, September 16, 2011

For happiness I shall fight

Why do I feel so old?
The times are passing by fast
Makes me want to go to the past
Because today is scary and cold


Black and white
Where have the colors gone?
Makes me want to cry and moan
But for happiness I shall fight


Frown and smile
That is what I shall do
For I still have you
And so life is worth the while


[ Just an attempt at serious stuff and a change of style ]